being an assertive person.

Today, when I follow the religion course, I got something that made me realize.
Not from what my lecturer tell, but from the board that I read in my classroom wall.
Board that reads : Being an assertive person and an explanation about it.

And the one thing that I realized: I was not an assertive person! :((

oh my God, there are 3 characteristic of people why are not assertive and it all turned out "I'M SO".
Yes, I'm someone who is afraid to hurt other people, fear not received, not liked, so that makes me very difficult to say "NO" and difficult to convey a sense of protest.
And finally I prefer silence and thought it was not a problem, and I became like relented.

Well, I know I'm not a brave woman.
I could never like the others, who freely appreciate their feelings, whether it likes it or not.
I can express feelings of love, but I can not express my feelings of dislike clearly to others.
Could not "directly" in front of them, staring at their faces.
I can not . . .

Maybe you do not believe it, considering I always rebelled like to express my feelings.
but hello! It is only in written form. On facebook, the status of, or in the note.

I'm craven. Too scared to convey what I feel, especially if it was different from other people.

Oh my God, please help me . . Only to You that I begged . . . .